Big mood vs. Big star
Jan. 22nd, 2026 07:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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I finally got up after my alarm went off, so that's a big achievement in my life that I would like to forever... I don't know where I'm going with this. I've had this 'waking up really early/ at 5am' complex since I started getting up early, which was originally just so I could talk to my dad or ask him for money, because he usually leaves at 7am and I wake up at 6 and would go to the bathroom after my sister, so we'd never get to talk. But now if I don't wake up at 5, I feel bad about myself.
I'm really worried about my birthday, not because it's probably going to be freezing, but because I plan to ask my dad about working at his store now that I'm 13, but after he told my sister that she'll never work a day in her life until he dies, I don't really feel confident that he'll say yes to my offer. Praying to God that he probably just meant that in a super strong 5'2 provider kind of way (yes, my dad's 5'2, why else would I add that?) I had a math tutoring cc today and it was basically just us getting familiar with our instructor, and the kid I was with wasn't too remarkable.
We had this list of questions to answer, and the 2nd one was about out hobbies/interests, and to this question, my not-too-remarkable classmate answered ''2,'' this bitch just said 2. And that's all he said; 2.
I rode Collins outside today and listened to PTAPL, Today - Smashing Pumpkins, Three cheers, and a bit of Deftones while I rode around in circles like an animal in zoochosis, and it was like 44 degrees outside.
When I was rewinding Be Quiet and Drive (Far Away) so I could hear Chino's moan again, my brother suddenly appeared with pink shit on his face from eating this candy-cane-thingy, and I was so pissed off; I kept annoyingly looking up at the camera in my backyard so I could, obviously, express my pissed-off-iness. But I'm glad that my brother went outside and seemed to enjoy it when I chased him around, machete in hand or not. I asked him why he likes My Chemical Romance so much, and he just said ''Idk,'' so I grabbed Collins and tossed it at him.
I made rice today and I added enough water this time. I also played The Sims 2 today and aged up my toddler into a child.
I don't really have much time to write this part because I should be in the shower right now, but I find listening to music while having sex to be such a bizarre concept and I need to write about this, so I'll either write about this in my next entry, or add onto this one, the former being more likely.
Later
I finally got up after my alarm went off, so that's a big achievement in my life that I would like to forever... I don't know where I'm going with this. I've had this 'waking up really early/ at 5am' complex since I started getting up early, which was originally just so I could talk to my dad or ask him for money, because he usually leaves at 7am and I wake up at 6 and would go to the bathroom after my sister, so we'd never get to talk. But now if I don't wake up at 5, I feel bad about myself.
I'm really worried about my birthday, not because it's probably going to be freezing, but because I plan to ask my dad about working at his store now that I'm 13, but after he told my sister that she'll never work a day in her life until he dies, I don't really feel confident that he'll say yes to my offer. Praying to God that he probably just meant that in a super strong 5'2 provider kind of way (yes, my dad's 5'2, why else would I add that?) I had a math tutoring cc today and it was basically just us getting familiar with our instructor, and the kid I was with wasn't too remarkable.
We had this list of questions to answer, and the 2nd one was about out hobbies/interests, and to this question, my not-too-remarkable classmate answered ''2,'' this bitch just said 2. And that's all he said; 2.
I rode Collins outside today and listened to PTAPL, Today - Smashing Pumpkins, Three cheers, and a bit of Deftones while I rode around in circles like an animal in zoochosis, and it was like 44 degrees outside.
When I was rewinding Be Quiet and Drive (Far Away) so I could hear Chino's moan again, my brother suddenly appeared with pink shit on his face from eating this candy-cane-thingy, and I was so pissed off; I kept annoyingly looking up at the camera in my backyard so I could, obviously, express my pissed-off-iness. But I'm glad that my brother went outside and seemed to enjoy it when I chased him around, machete in hand or not. I asked him why he likes My Chemical Romance so much, and he just said ''Idk,'' so I grabbed Collins and tossed it at him.
I made rice today and I added enough water this time. I also played The Sims 2 today and aged up my toddler into a child.
I don't really have much time to write this part because I should be in the shower right now, but I find listening to music while having sex to be such a bizarre concept and I need to write about this, so I'll either write about this in my next entry, or add onto this one, the former being more likely.
Later
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